I really hope everyone had a great new year. In Israel it's called Sylvester. I didn't understand at first. I was like "Wtf is Sylvester? You mean the cat from Looney Toons?" Then a friend told me it was new years.
Mine was alright. I stayed behind the camera but there is one photo of me from New Years.
I didn't do too much but it was nice to have something small and see some friends. My room mate yoni threw a party so some people came over.
I was having a very hard time figuring out a new years resolution. I took a nice good hard look back at everything that happened in 2010. Despite it being so life changing and full of hard ships and things that still hurt today, it was a good year. I decided that Im gonna look out for myself. Help myself more. Im not going to do things I dont want to do. I wont be afraid to say no. Im really going to try and make this year about making myself happy instead of helping others trying to make others happy. I always do that. I put myself situations that make me upset because it makes someone else happy. I need to say "enough is enough".
Sometimes by doing this it means you have to say goodbye to some people. The people who are negatively influencing your life. Those that are just using you or try to guilt you into doing things to make them happy so they dont have to do it.
You know Im a damn good friend and an even better person. I always try to help those in need. I try to them make feel better if I see they are feelin down. But you know I realized that I give and I give and I give. Maybe 2 people have actually helped me back if I was down or needed help. I treated people better then I treated myself. In turn it made me look like I can be used for anything. I realized if I want to be taken seriously I need to take care of myself first. Where is the real happiness if Im sacrificing everything I have to make others happy.
I think its time to stop that. I will start being friends with those people that I want to be friends with. Im not going to worry about hurting others because they cant get the cake mix in the store. If I want to eat cake I will make it and eat it myself. Its my turn to have my cake and eat it too. No more feeling sorry, looking at what others have and wishing I could have that. Well I stopped and I reviewed- I need to help myself. not others.
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| Sam and I. 1/1/2011 |
The only photo from New Years of me. :)
